listened to a total of 102 SC elects' speeches yesterday. i find the second part very draggy. time was crawling. argh!!!! nothing unusual, like a elect fell off the stage or a elect forgot his/her speech, happened yesterday. i only rememebered there were alot of singing which many of us felt that the elects' speech day was becoming into a audition for Singapore Idol. i was impressed with this guy but not by his speech but his magic trick. haha... i dont understand how they work but what is most important is they always make me to go "woah". i always love magical stuff that cannot be explain. so cool... besides that, my fellow junior's speech left a deep impression on me. i dont find any fault with the words that she used. those words were to symbolize everyone has the potential to be a leader. why were some of the audience picking on her? it just showed how narrow-minded they were. i understand that when you are really into something, you will tend to be on defensive mood when others are commenting on your work. you wll want to hear praises and not criticism. you may get irrational and emotional when things dont go your way. if so, i am sorry to say that you will fail to be a leader cos a leader should be rational and not let his/her emtions get into his/her way. so please reflect!
i do NOT want the extra 8 seconds. NOOOOOOooooo.... i was disappointed with my performance today. what was going on in my little pea brain? how could i allow such a tragic to happen on me? i was defeated by a mild 8 seconds. if not, my records will be perfect. i was given a tight slap on my face when she read my timing. my heart sank to the first floor, as quoted from mr chng.
eileen said today is the BIG word day but to me it is more of a thinking day. 2 things happened today, which showcaseed my performance for the past few months, made me reflected. when was the last time i felt a sense of satisfication in my work? even i could not recall. i have been living a day by a day without any aim. others have found their aim in life and adapted successfully to changes, while i am still struggling behind, refusing to move. i have let down many people and i hate to see the disappointment in their eyes. i have been telling myself many a time not to let history repeat itself but i am getting nowhere. what's the point with all these encouragement but with no concrete plans to follow? i ran to my bookshelf and dug out the "who moved my cheese?" book. i read it and felt much better, a release of negative feelings. i know what i should do now but unsure if it will work. okay. stop it!!! stop thinking of fear. fear slows down the process and withdraws people from trying. just go and give it my best shoot. i just hope the others will not frightened by fear too. =D
"what would you do if you arent afraid"
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